"Hindsight, Nostalgia, and Retrospection"
It's not until there's an earth-shattering, ever-loving splinter in things do people pay any attention. Not until things are irrevocably, irreparably damaged. Only then do they wish that fallen leaves and acorns would take wing, fluttering, hurtling back to the trees, fastening themselves back into place. That the squirrel would kick it into reverse, backing up into the dog's snapping, insatiable jaws, it's tail fluff laced with ropey strands of saliva, dewed with the humidity of carnivorous breath. That the dog's leash would slither its way back to the little girl's hand, as if she held a tune on her lips that charmed garter snakes and cobras alike. That her feet would lift from the pavement and step back onto the curb, back onto the safe carpet of tiredly green autumn grass. That the powder-dusting of glass on the asphalt would reform into a solid windshield shape and reinsert itself into the previously mangled frame of the car. That the vehicle itself would burst back into motion, having been paused by some otherworldly remote control, and then rewind, zipping past the moment where the driver swerved to miss the little girl who darted into the street after the dog - and the moment just after that when the car wrapped around the thick girth of the telephone pole on the corner. Past the instant when the driver's heart stopped beating, just as the phantasmic wail of the ambulance broke the silence that followed the crash.
Would you even have noticed the leaves?
The real question is...if those trees weren't there, there wouldn't have been acorns...so would there have been squirrels? Would anything have happened at all? Everything's connected, isn't it? Everything's a catalyst.
out with the old, in with the new.
i know it's not new years...but it IS time for a change.
well, nick's gone and i'm miserable.
i miss him so.
-_- i'll update later on the details of the past week and the contents of this hellish day that just won't die.
"nothing so fortifies a friendship as a belief on the part of one friend that he is superior to the other."
i made a list yesterday of close to eighty classic books i need to read in my lifetime. :3 i checked off a few already XD not enough to make a dent...but it's a start :3
life's been so hectic lately. spain was...not what i expected. a bit of a disappointment. as with everything, i'll look at it as a worldly experience and an expansion of my horizons ^_^ however, it was amazing to see how i'd function on my own. no mother to wake me up or give me orders or nag me to clean XD i liked it :3 i liked being able to walk everywhere i needed to go. i'll miss that.
i kind of miss granada to be honest. i miss the lifestyle and the languidity of everything. and the adrenaline rush of attempting to cross the goddamn street XD
i had a nice homecoming. danielle and mum were at the airport. finally got to the house to find a big 'welcome home' sign on the garage and some balloons around. unfortunately, had a fight with mum that very night and cried myself to sleep -_- that nightmare i had about them treating me like crap even after i got home? yeah. it came true.
bo started puppy classes today. :3 she's an embarassment. she just wants to play with everyonnnne! >3 we'll be working at home a LOT more after that =x
went shopping with danielle and carla a few days ago. bought two cute shirts and realized i need a job super bad :3 going back again soon to buy faux fur and to bring my ipod to the apple store.
that's all i got :3 i'm outta steam. i think i'll go try to sleep now. i have to pick up nick early tomorrow.
i'm still-...trying not to be scared to death XD
:3 wish me luck.
nick just left on a two day trip up here.
this is terrifying.
no turning back now.